When I checked it circa 3hrs ago there were no comments under it (even thought there were according to the comment counter-thingie) and when I tried to comment I got the "file not found"; and I couldn't see it in yer gallery!
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Journal Entry: Wed May 14, 2008, 12:17 PM
Please keep in mind: This text is not directed at anybody here from dA. ___
I feel like a goddamn dog.
I'm supposed to be happy so I wag my tail, never barking since every well trained dog out there is not supposed to. I'm supposed to lay flat on my stomach and wait for master to pet my head so I have a new and good reason to wag my tail some more!
Fuck off.
Really.
I have my own opinions and only because they don't fit into the pictures others have of me I won't just put them away:
I might dislike fighting but I would still love to slap some people. Too bad I'm not strong enough to make it hurt. I love reading shonenai-fanfictions en masse and my favs are those of FF7! I'm downright bored when talking to most people out there! IF I'm even talking to them. Most of them only talk to me anyway. Don't know why since I don't care to answer. I hate physical contact. Hate it, hate it, hate it!! It grosses me out! I can't stand it! I even have the urge to go and wash my hand whenever I shook hands with someone! I love to listen to music and think of stories I never write down! And I hate it when someone talks to me in those moments, when I threw my head somewhere into the clouds! I NEED coffee in the morning! And if you talk to me before I had any you're most likely to meet an early end. I'm afraid of sleeping because I have fucking nightmares of the shit I encountered in my life! Yes, Family is for me only a word without meaning! I hate my own heartbeat! The only thing I like about myself are my hands! I like listening to cheap techno-beats like those of djbobo! And I don't eat anything during day except of snacks because I don't want to, not because I'm anorectic! I can spend an fortune on Computers, drawing equipment and toys and then be bitchy about a few bucks for food or tickets for something.
If I never eat or sleep when you're around I'm not trusting you!
And if I never draw when you're around then the reason is that I most likely DESPISE YOU!
THAT'S ME!
If people think the only thing needed to call themselves my friends is to pat my head from time to time they are fucking darn wrong!
I want to say what I long to say, want to draw what I long to draw. I want to go where ever I want to and I certainly read whatever I want to! I have an opinion and a good one in my eyes!
... After that post you would really think I'm mad at someone in peculiar... But that's not really true. I'm mad at myself. Pissed to no end.
*lying on table typing with one hand* I wish I were a cat-person... I would scratch them all and then stalk off without caring that they are around... Just... catlike. *bonks head on table* ... Der reinste Comming-Out-Journaleintrag... -.-
*bursts out laughing* Ok, I'll keep that in mind! *notes down "throw rock"* And... eep...? Like...? Uhm...? scared-eep or yay-eep? Oo Or something-else-eep?
Und der Kommentar war gar nicht so gemeint... ich hab's spontan gedacht und später ist mir aufgefallen das es einen Sinn ergibtt. Creepy. O.o
Also, ich finde du hast genug Krallen.
Falls du meine Meinung willst... Jetzt mal ganz allgemein: Ich finde es wichtig, so zu sein wie man will, und das auch zu vetreten, andererseits finde ich auch das es dazu gehört die Meinung der anderen zu akzeptieren.. ändern kann man sie eh nicht. Je mehr man es an die Grosse Glocke hängt, desto mehr finden die Leute es komisch, ich merk das auch immer mehr, darum halte ich mich auch zurück. Ist frustrierend aber das ist wohl einfach so. Vielleicht bin ich ja auch nicht anders, ich weiss nicht.
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I can swallow it down, keep it all inside I define myself by how well I hide Feel it coming apart, well at least I tried
Naja, bei mir ist es doch extrem. Ich sage etwas, wenn dann jemand kommt und das nicht mag tendiere ich dazu gleich die Meinung mindestens nach aussen zu revidiren und runterzuspielen... Ich könnte mich erschiessen, aber ich kann einfach nicht anders. Ich kann auch über vieles einfach nicht reden. Yaoi? Versuch es und Du hast innert kürzester Zeit so ein komisches rotes Dingsda gegenüber, die keinen Ton mehr rausbring.
@ least you're not a bunny--they have heart attacks when they get too scared & die...
But obedience is overratedchallenge the system and force others to think outside the box, if not for them then for your own sanity. Too many people are normal and miserable why on Earth would anyone want to live like that?
And slapping hurtsI dont know who youre hitting. If that doesnt work pinching is good or if youre very serious a big bat will do the trick.
Oo Ok, that comment made me totally crack. I laughed so hard. same for small mice btw. they tend to die of shock when a cat hunts them.
the point is: I never slap anybody. I'm scared of hurting people... Even though I would really like to sometimes. I would love to kick some asses on some days... Bats tend to do too much damage though.
Devious Comments
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I can swallow it down, keep it all inside
I define myself by how well I hide
Feel it coming apart, well at least I tried
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The cookie monster has got nothing on me.
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Der reinste Comming-Out-Journaleintrag... -.-
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I dare. Do you?
And... eep...? Like...? Uhm...? scared-eep or yay-eep? Oo Or something-else-eep?
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I dare. Do you?
Also, ich finde du hast genug Krallen.
Falls du meine Meinung willst... Jetzt mal ganz allgemein:
Ich finde es wichtig, so zu sein wie man will, und das auch zu vetreten, andererseits finde ich auch das es dazu gehört die Meinung der anderen zu akzeptieren.. ändern kann man sie eh nicht.
Je mehr man es an die Grosse Glocke hängt, desto mehr finden die Leute es komisch, ich merk das auch immer mehr, darum halte ich mich auch zurück. Ist frustrierend aber das ist wohl einfach so. Vielleicht bin ich ja auch nicht anders, ich weiss nicht.
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I can swallow it down, keep it all inside
I define myself by how well I hide
Feel it coming apart, well at least I tried
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I dare. Do you?
But obedience is overratedchallenge the system and force others to think outside the box, if not for them then for your own sanity. Too many people are normal and miserable why on Earth would anyone want to live like that?
And slapping hurtsI dont know who youre hitting. If that doesnt work pinching is good or if youre very serious a big bat will do the trick.
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I no spl chk
I'm on Tuesday but go there all week! Studio7Days
the point is: I never slap anybody. I'm scared of hurting people... Even though I would really like to sometimes. I would love to kick some asses on some days... Bats tend to do too much damage though.
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I dare. Do you?
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It sounds like you've stressed yourself out and really need to vent it out more than just through that of the journal.
And being a friend..
You can take it out on me till you de-anger a little. Do what you want, I'm here for you!
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